Pixie perfection?
I have gone and done it, and there is no turning back! The pixie hair cut. I have been thinking about this for several years, but just didn't have the guts to do it. When I was a youngster I was not given a choice. Pixie it was, 60's style. I was asked on a regular basis by my long ponytail/pigtail-sporting friends why I wanted to look like a boy. Scarred for life! Mom was adamant that there was no way she was going to deal with a long head of hair every day. "When I think you are old enough to take care of it by yourself, you can let it grow out." By 4th grade, it was shameful having hair shorter than the heartthrobs I was crushing on, the princes of Tiger Beat magazine: Bobby Sherman, Donny Osmond, David Cassidy, etc. By sixth grade I had shoulder-length hair and I swore I would never, ever have short hair again. Not so. In my early 20's a very bad perm (done by a "professional") burned my hair so badly that it all had to be cut off. Again, I swore never again. In the past few years I found myself admiring women with close-cropped hair: gutsy, hip, artsy, and above all, confident. Now had I been blessed with a luxurious head of thick, beautiful hair I may have been content, but alas, I was not. I have a head full of fine hair not much thicker than duckling down or cotton candy. It took me until I hit my forties to realize it was never going to get better and I was never going to be a candidate for a Breck commercial. So I gave in and got a bob. I think bobs are cute as can be, but I felt out of sorts. The bob is not me. It is neat and organized and sometimes even conservative. With the bob hairdo I felt a bit off, like I was playing dress-up. The only time I have felt like me in my hair was back in the perm days when my hair was long and wild and permed (and severly damaged, never to be the same again). So here I am, after an amazing cut by the ever-wonderful Ms. Paula, thinking "OH YEAH!" It's totally me! I think I am in love with myself (just for now). I am indeed kicking myself for waiting so long, just as Paula said I would. I feel like me. My husband, who was a tad nervous before the scissoring, loves it, as do both the boys. Whew! I hope when the honeymoon wears off I don't look in the mirror and see my dad or Tracy the lunch lady staring back at me. For now its all about the game, whose hair is the shortest.

